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Easy life is not my thing

I never had an easy life. All the convenience today, I got it through bungee-jumping process. I experienced several depression, lost and win, like a roller coaster ride. When depression hit me, I always have this question in my head: Why me, again? Whats’s wrong with me, why me?

A good deeds somehow could not give me a good result. I am a magnet of bad luck. This is tricky, life is joke, have been doing magic trick. Life is messing around me.

So now, I have another question: how to get easy life? 

I want to bargain. I want to give everything I have now, just to be loved. Affection. Connection. Real talk with real person. But however, when I think about this stuff, it looks like I am the pathetic person. The hunger of affection make be blind. This is ridiculous.

I am strong woman, said them. I don’t want to be strong just to be hurted by the end of the day. It is ok with me, she is strong and different, said them. But I am not ok. I want to forget all the strength I have just to let people hug me. I don’t want to be strong just to stand alone.


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